charlie vile
chas stayed with us a few months in 2003
he built this here bike-o-lounger while he was here, rode it all over town
the main problem with this bike is that it's so comfortable that the rider is apt to fall asleep en route...
JOURNAL ENTRIES '95 & '96
mon oct 2
install heatercore ford wagon
tues. oct 3
install heater hose & top off radiator w / a.f. ford wagon
cut counter tops for sinks
check fluids diesel truck
" " chrysler wagon
wed oct 4
tune up '69 pontiac lemans
remove heatercore, check all fluids
thurs oct 5
replace heatercore
r & r thermostat
remove shifter toyota truck
cut counter top for sink
fri oct 6
repair door handles & windows toyota truck
mon oct 9
work at store
check elec diesel truck
fuel pump komac
tues oct 10
worked with ed on fence
worked on fiero
wed oct 11
moved lumber & pipe from med
unclogged roof drain /store
thurs oct 12
worked at med center
hang sheetrock
fri oct 13
worked at med center
hang sheetrock
mon oct 16
worked at med center
sheetrock
tues oct 17
worked at med center
wed oct 18
worked at med center
thurs oct 19
worked at med center
fri oct 20
worked at med center
jesus loves you baby
leap of faith
with all my heart
my body
my soul
my mind
ballast for light
physical stimulation = satan ~ nobody cares
vs
spiritual growth = jesus ~ you're loved
spiritual growth achieved through hard work, studying scripture, meditation and prayer ... continuous prayer
physical stimulations can be overcome through faith, that the holy spirit will guide us to righteousness, that our hearts, collectively praising, the lord will lift us above the physical...
mon nov 6
worked at med center
paint
tues nov 7
worked at med center
wed nov 8
newsletter
pull filters drain oil diesel
thurs nov 9
replace filters & oil diesel
check fluids chrys wagon
fiero?
fri nov 10
washed mr2
clearance lts diesel trk
mon nov 13
install clearance lts diesel trk
tues nov 14
finish clearance lts
work on toyota idle
service "
wed nov 15
inspect front end chryslr wgn
more work toy front brakes
work on emergency brk gas trk
thurs nov 16
inspect rear brakes & seals toy
service gas trk
fri nov 17
clearance lts gas trk
mon nov 20
install seatbelt meredith
bolt gas trk
repair tilt steer ford wagon
fix lghts service rose's lemans
tues nov 21
meredith capri
rain
r & r rear brakes
wed nov 22
pull drums & rotors chrysler wagon
wrapped fish
work at house
thurs nov 23
turkeyday
fri nov 24
r & r break pads & shoes chrysler wagon
sat nov 25
raked leaves
to him who sits on the throne
and unto the lamb
be blessing & honor
& glory & power
forever amen
your humble, loyal servant
i thank and praise you
i can do all things through
christ who strengthens me
i am full of the holy spirit
thou shalt not cast aspersions on a mothers virtue
C = V
plug yourself in!
independence
rebellion } your attitude
resentment
law of 4 p's :
1. promise = you get what you need
2. principle = seek first kingdom of god
3. problem = patience (what to do about children)
4. god's provision = you get what you need...
beep ed @ #2
mon nov 27
service chrysler wagon
bleed brakes
worked at house
tues nov 28
chrslr wagon - brakes
lights diesel trk
wed nov 29
raked leaves
reva's house
thurs nov 30
worked on fiero
fri dec 1
worked on fiero some more
service big trucks
change oil / r & r taillight / wash susies chevy
wrapped burnt wire
mon dec 4
vacuum chevy
remove thermostat gas trk
3 mos yea!
tues dec 5
vacuum fridge
work house
wed dec 6
worked on toyota
thurs dec 7
repaired mirror blue wagon
worked at house
fri dec 8
worked on toy
sat dec 9
worked at house & toy
mon dec 11
worked at store
tues dec 12
fixed dryed
worked at house
wed dec 13
fix leak roof vent
worked at store
thurs dec 14
replace dist cap, rotor, voltage reg toy
work at house
fri dec 15
worked at house
sat dec 16
worked at house
sun dec 17
worked on toilet
womens shelter
mon dec 18
r & r upstairs sewer pipe
womens shelter
tues dec 19
worked around house
wed dec 20
worked house & toy
thurs dec 21
worked house
2-11-96
how long do i wait laurel? what if i ask the lord for patience, that someday you may grow to love me as i love you? how many times have i already forsaken true love, in this miserable waiting game? is my heart so hardened, i think not, i love you with a broken heart that even our children see, yet you dont believe that they were conceived in love ...
7 feasts during year
3 spring 50 days pentecost 3 fall
4 aspects
1 hysterical
2 agricultural
3 sacrificial
4 prophetic
hebrews 2
pay attention not to drift away
fri april 5 1996
music drew a picture of me
sat april 6 '96
easter wknd
8 oclock havin coffee in the lutheran church in cave junc thinkin about the kids and leavin them for awhile.
"hi love"?
sun
saw kids at park
shunned by laurel
5/40
rotatin thingh-fish trap
mon 4/8
praise god ... i woke up ... spent most day w / mark & david
tues 9
met mark behind market
"praise god"
seen my daughter
she said "hi dad"
hi music
i love you
wed 10
nadine heiser
(i love this snake)
st matthias episcopal
hang out at church all day
thurs 11
finally left cave junction
sittin behind safeway grants pass drinkin a red wolf ...
sorrow for leavin the kids ...
my hearts broke
maybe i'll find someone to fix it ...
think god
fri 12
great ride, last night got into sac, east side hitchin east, good luck ...
boy, it's been a slow day
god wants me practicing perfect patience ...
sat 13
well i slept by this on ramp, good sleep, a little chilly though. i'm not sober (smoked a bowl) but i'm dry. mornin, no water no coffee, i've got 1 hard boiled egg and some swiss cheese ... beautiful blue sky, praise god ... well sittin here, ate the egg and some cheese 2 mormons stop, give me a book of mormon said they can't give me a ride but they'll call a friend who can. right, so for the heck of it i start reading an hour goes by and another new car stops black guy in suit & tie i ask him if his friends called him, i got his interest right away he says "get in i'll give you a ride and tell me what you mean" i couldn't place his accent told him of the mormons and showed him the book also said i'm christian & my bible is all i need he replied "here is my bible, read something while i drive" i can't remember the psalm i turned to but "praise a holy god" anyway, god brought lumballa from zaire to america, god got him into school and god was going to give him citizenship so he could bring his family over oh, and god just gave him a new chevy so when he saw me he said he had to give me a ride because it was gods car. i do not claim to know or even understand what god has planned for me, but i don't think its ridin with mormons ... its midnight, i'm in a mission in reno. see ya mañana praise a holy god
sun 14
free coffee at st. vinnies, praise and glory to a holy god ... shower & shave, good food, and a wonderful service at the mission praise and glory to jesus whose love endureth forever ...
mon 15
seek ye first the kingdom of god ... back on the road this mornin, feel like reno is satan's playground ... been a week since i seen the kids, keep your angels over them please god ...
tues 16
mornin caldwell, idaho ... 30 mi from boise ... havin coffee wonderin why i took this last ride and what god has in store for me in boise, i'm sure takin the long road east but i still got time before the gathering i shall sing my praise on the side of the road to a most high god and have faith that he shall lead me to righteousness amen and maybe some work ... eatin lunch in front of capitol, neat building ... ran into some hippies it was fun visitin with them, people should live free, not the warped idea society perpetuates and calls freedom - you don't need a cellphone ... just sittin contemplatin, the kids, laurel, nadine and her thing, bills incarceration, richie dyin, my father dyin, my sister, my brother, almost killin steve, and a bunch of other stuff and ya know regular employment, money, retirement, my old age, just don't seem so important, i want the holy spirit to guide me, please god watch over the kids ...
wed 17
slept at mission last night ... good sleep ... drinkin coffee, readin local paper at mcdonalds boise ... rainin cats & dogs ... dear jesus keep your angels over laurel and the kids, please watch over nadine & her kids, and mark and all those good folks i met in cave junction, & please god let your spirit guide me through my uncertainty for i don't know what your will is but i'm listening, i think my prayer, my dreams, my goals are useless without action, please help me act right amen ...
thurs 18
"praise jesus" up all night cops followin me around no rest for the wicked i guess ...
fri 19
sittin in the day labor waitin for a job maybe - maybe not, aint gonna starve in boise ... thank you jesus for a sunny day, let me do your will, come what may ... no work, sittin in dennys havin coffee thinkin if i had sold my stamps earlier i'd be well on my way to drunkeness right now and i don't even know whycouldnt have nothin to do with a broken heart, or missin the kids or bein broke and homeless in a strange city and this is my pity party, but you know me ... that was 9:00 pm, its now 5 after one, met a bro, went 2 bars, drank beers, sold medecine bags, talked to sisters, shot pool, now i'm back at dennys drinkin coffee again, been rainin hard, weather man says snow ...
sat 20
the sabbath ...
sun 21
evenin, been drunk since fri night and havin fun in boise i knew better, but had a lapse
mon 22
all day at labor hall ... work tomorrow. yea money ... god will supply all i need i reckon ... i sure miss the kids ...
tues 23
worked today, tore a floor out of a mobile home 6 bucks an hour and he wants me back tomorrow ... sittin in dennys havin coffee just thinkin, god knows my sinful nature habits i've grown up with don't easily change, i beg jesus to help me, i'll lay down with my face in the dirt and beg forgiveness, for i truly want the kingdom of god to be my eternal home, to praise my lord for ever, his loving kindness and compassion to encompass my heart for all time, please i beg you you keep your angels protecting arms about laurel and the kids amen.
24th may '96
a month later here i am ...
god is talkin,
what i need is
"response ability"
nov 1 '96
well i'm not even gonna think, just write, so here goes sompthin ... i left idaho with $600 cash, by the time i got to c.j. i had $300, 2 days on the road was fun i guess i don't really remember ... days are a blur, drinkin with white fox, bible study w / mark, seein the kids occasionally, generally livin life up to sept 24 when joe kicked the side of my face in, ambulance ride to grants pass surgery a wk later, 2 titanium plates, left side, one above eye, one underneath healin well it seems, angry as hell, but that too will pass, i hope
nov 6 '96
still here, thank god, don't really know it helps, but it cant hurt, sittin in a coffee shop when i should be drinkin, so it goes i'm missin the kids, "god keep your angels over them amen" its a promise i'll keep, lord, your love & protection for my children, for my obedience & love for a holy god ...
all praise & glory to a holy god
wish you were here ... excuse me lord i'm havin fun
thurs nov 14 '96
have been drunk every day since i left the mission and it's not so much fun anymore, just maintenance, it seems to me i will go totally down this path in my life wherever it leads, so help me god (no pun intended), righteous uncertainty ... love god love family love your neighbor and dont worry about tomorrow ... its easier said than done ... please protect laurel & the kids, thank you jesus amen ...